So yeah...
Haven't posted in a LONG time. Why? Haven't really thought of anything interesting to say, ya know?
First off, let me state this. Its the future, for fuck's sake.
I started this blog with one goal in mind; get my opinions on mostly movies and crap out there, to see if people would be interested in reading what I had to say. Nothing more, nothing less.
But, something has sparked me related to that. Its kind of out there, but it all ties together, trust me.
Its almost seven in the morning. I can't sleep, because of this topic. I wish I could. I want to. But its not going to happen until I get this out in the open.
I just watched a movie called "Playing Columbine" its about the guy that made a crappy 16-bit game called "Super Columbine Massacre RPG!" and the ramifications of doing so. It was a profound experience. And saying that probably won't mean a lot to the people that don't much about me. But to those that do, you would realize just how much that hits home.
No, I wasn't at Columbine or whatever, I've never even been to Colorado. No desire to as well. No, no. I was and still am, an "individual" of sorts. I do kind of what I want. And I don't care about people's opinions at all. Imagine how much fun that was in high school. Go ahead. I'll wait here.
Also, you people should know that I am a gamer. Not as much as I used to be, but most of my formidable adolescent years were spent in front of a tv, alongside the clunky hum of my PS1 as it churned out Final Fantasy 7 for hours on end. That was what I wanted to do. And I was damn happy doing it. The only way I could have been any happier, is if the game never ended.
Now, skip ahead to the Columbine shooting. Here is a kid, who is a loner. Mostly by choice. He has long, weird hair. Listens to weird music. Watches weird tv. I grew up in a town of like 100 people. Yeah. So, that struck a particular chord. Was I going to shoot someone? Hell no. I'm not a moron. Never even crossed my mind. I was happy just talking circles around people. But it didn't stop the looks. It didn't stop the whispers, the constant monitoring, the searches by teachers and staff. After repeated signs that I wasn't going to do that, it just kept going. But I dealt with it, because again, I don't care what anyone has to say or think about me. That includes you, person that is reading this.
But still, I didn't have a voice. The media cloaks everything. You get news one of two ways; warm and fuzzy or frightening. That's it. So I couldn't look there. What is a person to do? You introvert. I didn't have it in me to have a voice at that time. I tried. But one against a million are shitty odds.
But that's not the point of this. I'm not here to tell you my sob story or anything. Again, I don't care.
I'm here to tell you about this movie.
I've never had a piece of media affect me like this. Never. It was so thought provoking and difficult to process all at once. I've watched it twice and I'm still not sure what I've watched. It was biased, yeah. But, it was a voice for my people. Men and women that think and act like I do. Has anyone ever had that happen? Has some kind of media struck you like this before?
I'm sitting here, and all I can think of, is all of that stuff that I went through. And I'm watching this guy go through all of that, for making a game. And the game doesn't glorify what those two psychopaths did. It tells the whole story. Not the crap that Fox News is going to give you. Or Newsweek, or anything like that. You learn what the kids went through, what they thought. The questions have been asked on both sides, where were the parents? What would make someone do such a thing? I don't know. Like I said, I had more fun confusing a bunch of rednecks with words longer than two syllables.
If I can pass one thing to you people. The like ten of you that are going to read this (hi mom!). The one thing I want anyone to take away from meeting me, is to never judge someone at face value, hell, don't judge at all. Let people be themselves, and care about them, because they're people. Not for their skills.
This is the future for fuck's sake.
Let's be excellent to each other.
